Thursday, August 31, 2006
*yawns* it's a beautiful morning today. there were slight sounds of thunder & peckles of rain pelting down on the concrete floor of my neighbourhood. but other than that slight depressing sight of gloom ahead,somehow rather i feel afresh & raring to go to start my day today.
the secondary school best friend just woke up; so here i am warming my buttocks off infront of the laptop's screen while waiting for her to doll up. )= actually i can't wait to unleash this playful demons in mine, right during the unofficial gathering in school today. i was browsing through an old friend's diaryland, and all the mischievous times i had with him & the others.. priceless.
i was a dork then; right with all my other a
dorkable friends. however, the consolation that came along with being a geek was that nothing had been a barrier to my innoncent-like happiness. no boy dramas and no bitchy girlfriends who would find a way to bring me down to my lowest peak of confidence. darn, those were the times.
and now i'm all grown up; with age (and vanity) comes responsibility. i have to take full credit for whatever wrongdoings there is. i learnt to judge more, destroy myself despite the values i was taught with and fell in love. so does the fact that i grew up meant that i had an all-pass ticket to be a certified failure?
-shakes head- i doubt so, that is the reason why i am building myself all over again right from the basics of it all.
ahh. life; just a mystery in itself. see la? one tree hill is just a bitch; it is supposed to be one of those acne-prone teenager's flick but i used it as a guideline of how i see the circumstances of my life. hoho.
let me go to the kitchen & make myself a hot cup of cocoa. i'm just shivering because of the weather, brrrr.
